Hourglassed

I'm on a time limit here. One more exam in a week and a half to study for, plus an eye exam at the optometrist, and my training modules which have to be completed within a time limit. Too much pressure going on and I'm thinking about a girl. Truthfully I have no time for women, they waste my time. I have too many goals prioritized for myself to be bothered with a relationship, it can wait until after I come back from New Zealand. I don't have any plans to start a family until I'm like thirty-five. Sure girls will come and go but I'm going to do my best to ignore them all. A relationship is too much work; it means jealousy, anxiety, fear, inadequacy, and all the bad shit. I'm sure many of you reading this disagree, but not me, because these are what happen to me when I'm in a relationship. It's funny there are so many relationships going on around me and my boys are pressuring me into one. I don't know why you're all so concerned with being alone. I've been in four relationships and though they were all great, I found myself being very unproductive. My life became stagnant and I felt like I was stuck in one spot while everyone else was moving on. Since my last relationship I've done so many things since then that have put me on the map as an amateur photographer and production assistant on a real set. I even have a kajiji ad in front of me that I'm about to call for a volunteer photography colloborative position that will help me build my portfolio. Productivity feels good. The reason I'm writing this blog is because one of my close boys just broke up with his girl, my cousin is in a bumpy relationship with her boyfriend, and there is no room in my life right now for another one. For me (maybe not for you, relationships are a distraction). Since my boy split up with his girl (after nearly four years), he wrote a track on top of a recycled beat that sounds phenomenal and I think it's his best work yet. I'm too young to be worried about a girl. After all, we all do have a time limit.

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